These are two words that sum up life around here as of late. Caileigh, wants everything NOW! "Mommy, I need this, Mommy, I want that, Mommy, NOW NOW NOW!!! Emma, can't say now, she can barely say MaMa, but her cries and whines translate just the same. Daddy and Mommy say, "Wait, please (most of the time) be patient, not now, I'm trying to hurry, etc." Our response is not typically taken very well, therefore most episodes end up in time out thinking about our attitude etc.
A recent episode (this morning) had me thinking about how I am just like my girls - or maybe they are just like their mama...? We want everything NOW, but are being told to WAIT, to be patient. I want Emma's medical records from Carrollton NOW, so she can see an ENT, so we can fix her ears NOW and stop having ear infections NOW. I want people to call back NOW, so we can decide to move to a particular home. I want our support to be in NOW, so Stephen can start working, so our life can have some "routine," so we can have a reliable budget, so I can make plans NOW... You get the picture - I'm whinny.
After taking my "time-out," I see how I am unable to WAIT on God, to trust Him wholeheartedly. I spent some time in the Word as I was convicted of my whinny, impatient heart attitude. I also did a word study on the word; WAIT - hope, expect, look eagerly, trust, wait expectantly, wait in hope, to be dumb, grow silent, be still, rest... The last three definitions are hard for me to swallow; grow silent, be still, rest... That goes against every sinful nature of my being. I like to keep busy, I like to do things, go places etc. I don't want to rest. I don't want to have to wait on others. I want to control the situation.
Please pray that we would WAIT on the Lord, trusting in His timing and His goodness, and in the meantime be content with God's provision and timing.
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